aww. how sad.

amanda leaned in to kiss big red. she pushed him down onto her bed. he laughed, "you're crazy, you know?" "i know," she said pulling off his shirt.

**** a while later

amanda laid on big red's chest. "hey," she said sitting up, "let go on a date tonight." big red didn't say anything. "amanda, uhm.. you're just a friend, you know?" he asked. "i don't understand," she replied. "you're just a friend, amanda. i don't wanna date you." "what was that then?" she asked. "i'm not going to stop you when you wanna get screwed," big red said laughing. "so that was basically just meaningless to you? you just wanted to have sex?" "i kind of thought that was what you wanted too," big red said. "big red, i'm not just going to screw someone because i want to have sex. i like you, big red. apparently, though, you don't give a shit about me." "amanda, god, i love you. you're just a friend to me though. i mean, a really great, hot one, but still a friend." "how can you have sex with me like that and then say i'm just a friend?" amanda asked. her eyes were narrowing. big red put his hands around her waist and pulled himself on top of her, "amanda, don't get pissed off. i really didn't mean anything by it." "get the fuck off of me! that's exactly the point, big red! i don't mean anything to you!" big red didn't move, "you mean a lot to me," he rubbed up and down her arms. she pulled his hands off. "sorry. i don't want a relationship is all." "you wanna know why, big red? it's because you are scared to care about anyone and make yourself vulnerable. you've always got to be in control and it's so stupid! you won't give anyone a shot because of your stupid ego," amanda said. big red didn't say anything but he moved off of her and she got up. "i'm leaving." big red still didn't say anything.